Monday, September 15, 2008

And I Started

Today, when I awoke, I suddenly realized that this is the best day of my life ever. There were times when I wondered if I would make it today; but I did! And because I did, I'm going to celebrate! Today, I'm going to celebrate what an unbelievable life I have had so far: the accomplishments, the many blessings, and yes, even the hardships because they have served to make me stronger.

I will go through this day with my head held high and a happy heart. I will marvel at God's seemingly simple gifts: the morning dew, the sun, the clouds, the trees, the flowers, and the birds.

Today, none of these miraculous creations will escape my notice. Today, I will share my excitement for life with other people. I'll make someone smile. I'll go out of my way to perform an unexpected act of kindness for someone. I'll tell a child how special he is, and I'll tell someone I love how deeply I care for them and how much they mean to me.

Today is the day I quit worrying what I don't have and start being grateful for all the wonderful things God has already given me. I'll remember that to worry is just a waste of time because my faith in God and His Divine Plan ensures everything will be just fine.

And tonight, before I go to bed, I'll go outside and raise my eyes to the heavens. I will stand in awe at the beauty of the stars and the moon, and I will praise God for these magnificent treasures.

As the day ends and I lay my head down on my pillow, I will thank the Almighty for the best day of my life. And I will sleep the sleep of a contented child, excited with expectation because I know tomorrow is going to be the best day of my life ever!

-an excerpt

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Where is Maggie?

I feel like laughing my ass out loud right now. My sister sleeps beside me like a baby but I know she won't mind. Baliw na kung baliw.

Ha ha.

I just realized that for the past three months, I almost came to losing myself. And now, I'm on a journey. A journey to look and find the real Maggie in me. Wooops! I can hear Kris Aquino now...

"I swear... Maggie..."

Ha ha.

I have a few people to thank though, before this post ends:

Ate Meg, for your book and sisterly support which was unexpected. I love you!

Mimi, for your late night text messages.

Krsna, Joyce, Ver, Romar, and Mavin; for your visits.

You are all blessings. All your contributions made me realize a lot of things. You were all used by God to bring light into my current plight. Thank you very much!

I was lost before, but at least now, I can still prevent it from happening again before it's too late.

Monday, September 1, 2008

Sa Magkaibang Dulo ng Mundo

"Paano pipiliting pigilan ang isang pusong nananabik sa pangako ng isang bagong umaga?" -Magkabilang Mundo, Vic Dancel

Gumising akong mabigat and dibdib. Para bang may kirot na kahit kailanman ay hindi na maaalis. Kulang. Kulang na ang pagkatao ko. Wala na. Wala na si Mama Taba.

Ma, alam kong masaya ka na diyan. Kasama mo na si Tita Jing. Mami-miss ka namin. Hindi na kita mayayakap. Wala nang tatawag sakin ng Magdalena Ya Matos!

Masakit. Masakit isipin na kahit anong pilit ko, hindi ko na muling mayayakap, mahahalikan, makakasama, at makikita ang pinakamamahal kong lola.

Panginoon, ikaw na po ang bahala sa kanya. Bye Ma.